Happy first day of winter, everyone! I really cannot believe Christmas is in three days! This past weekend, my family hosted a Christmas party, something they love doing every year. It occurred to me, as I stood surrounded by people I've known for years, how much life has seemed to change since I've moved to Chattanooga. There are times when I'll go back and look at old photos on my phone, and realize how much time has changed my life. It wasn't too long ago I was wanting to go to art school for photography. Now, two majors later, I'm thrilled by how my life has morphed in the past year and a half.
Far too often, I make my decisions based on fear. Do I want to study abroad in the future? Well what if I don't meet any new people, become incredibly lonely, and get completely lost in the language and culture? What about moving to a different state when I graduate from college? It's something I've wanted to do for years, and there are so many beautiful places I'd love to live. Then again, what if it turns out that I hate where I want to move, I hate my job that I decide to get, and I waste a huge amount of time and money? Something even as simple as experimenting around with a photo concept makes me nervous. What if it's a disaster? What if I can't accomplish what I want to?
This negative energy seems to constantly surround my reasoning when I'm making decisions. But then, I look back at my life when I was in high school, and realize how much my bold decisions have changed me for the better. Where would I be if I hadn't gone completely out of my comfort zone to shoot incredibly-weird-but-kind-of-cool pictures? What if I never decided to go vegetarian because it would just be too hard and I'd miss bacon way too much? What would I be doing if I never started a blog because who would even read it anyways? What if I went to college and succumbed to the fear that there was no way I could ever be "cool enough" to join a sorority?
The decisions to push past these fears were the defining moments. They've morphed me into a person who is 1000x more confident in herself. They've made me bold. They've made me more prepared for those uncomfortable situations, which occur no matter what. I encourage everyone to make their own bold decisions as well. Choose what you really want to do. Fear has too often stood in the way of the decision I wish I had made. I'm going to leave you with this quote I discovered from my favorite photographer, Brooke Shaden, a few years ago.
“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”
- Frank Herbert
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